Najam June 10, 2017


Najam-Nicely dying. Not really but between the can’t breath and the cramps so feel like it. And all before my “wedding”. Not a true wedding, but one that Facebook so predicted would happen. Just thought I’d have some fun and throw a party on the day it thinks I was going to get married.  So it’s roasting hot dogs and s’mores and some strawberry shortcake. And whatever goodies anyone else brings. And some of sitting around a fire b.sing about life. And the start of another long week. With my next day off next Saturday. Just hopefully that one will be better than this one. I still need to get the grass and weeds out of the front yard and get some sort of plants for those pots. Probably no garden this year and sprinkler system is still down. Really need to get that fixe

Will hopefully find out about the job this next week as well. still not sure they will give it to me even though I only know of two of us applied for it. Just get too nervous when doing interviews. But at least I kind of getting the cooking down. I still get off doing the chicken and the times but at least I think I am improving….



So the insurance company got back with me. I make three payments of $430 for three months as a trial to show I am willing to pay and then they will work with me in helping me keep my house. Going to be rough but  I have to do this. And since getting help from outside isn’t really happening. Will try yard sale again, hopefully this Saturday. I can get a little money to help with paying. And if we can keep the 40 hour streak going a little while longer it will help as well.

Also trying to sell some stuff on ebay again… Not sure how well that will go but any amount of money will help…


April 14, 1997, Monday-Chris came home from Florida. He gave me a flatten penny with Mickey Mouse on it.

April 15, 1997, Tuesday-Went to mutual worked on packets for people who turn 8 this year. Started my period today. Threw away my Ibuprofen so I had to go home. Missed seminary. In great pain. Something wrong with tongue and leg.


Rachel Nyamoko June 8, 2017

Rachel Nyamoko

Rachel Nyamoko-Should be going to bed but not very tired. Oh well every night that I have to opening cook the next day I usually don’t make it to bed until 2 am. Which gives me about 3 hours of sleep before I wake up and have to walk to work. Need to move stuff downstairs so I can get to my air conditioning unit. I am so melting just from sitting here.

So kind of missed a lot. Just got too stressed about everything and just didn’t want to write about it.  Life is still rocky and I so want to be done with debt. But still plucking along. Applied for another 40 hour position in the deli. Actually haven’t told many people since I still don’t have much confidence in myself to actually do well enough in the interview to get the job. So wish…


So my Facebook wedding is coming up. June 11, Sunday. Lol. Going to throw a wedding party that night. Actually more like roasting hot dogs and just goofing off. But have some fun. Then its off to planning another yard sale since the last one sucked. Made $3 off of it. But still need to do something with all my junk that is now sitting in the basement. And starting to plot out stuff that I can do to my house to make it better.

No Blast from the past tonight. I don’t want to move right now….

www.gofundme.comnew-year-resolution still looking for help. Every donation will go to my mortgage that I owe. Just need $2000. And then I can take one thing off my shoulder.

Or help me with debt by sending money to


Hadar May 11, 2017


Hadar-Not sure what to write about…. Cleaned house a little today. At least the living room is a little better. Got more stuff ready for yard sale. Which I set a date for May 25.  Not going to be very big but hopefully I can sell everything so I’d have a tad more money for the mortgage… Priced checked all my baseball cards, yeah don’t have any big dollar ones. So will try to sell them at the yard sale as well. Realized in two weeks I have morning cooking hours. Eeck I haven’t really been in charge of cooking only sort of helping out every once in awhile. And not really good at getting things out on time. Hopefully we will have one operating oven.


Dead Cat. He’s getting a little more social, but still need to find him a home. Though luckily food and litter comes tomorrow. was kind of joking about changing my gofundme account to $53,000 and just putting it all towards paying off the mortgage. Then when I own my house I can work on paying off the other debt. Just wish I could figure out something. I know I didn’t get the 40 hour job even though I am pulling off getting more hours each week. Just don’t know, what to do anymore.


April 13, 1997, Sunday-Went to church today. Next Sunday the prophet is coming down for Regional Conference.

Tube Yuice May 10, 2017

Tube Yuice

Tube Yuice- Happy 2nd Birthday Kitty Riley!


So still a slacker. More like I’ve just wanted to curl up in bed about 9 pm and not doing anything the rest of the evening lately. Too stressed over everything nd my mom isn’t helping. How am I not suppose to stress about all this when I have someone consistently hounding me on stuff. And the whole let’s find me a second job deal is making it all worse. Was trying to sell stuff on Facebook marketplace lots of interest yet only one taker and that was $5. Doesn’t help in paying the mortgage. Need a yard sale but I don’t have any weekends off for a while.

Started to walk to and from work again. Should help with some stress and help me stay healthy. Now to figure out another income so I can work on getting out of debt. Really want to do Tupperware again… But with all money going to pay down what I owe on the mortgage not sure how I am going to do that…


April 12, 1997, Saturday- Angela came over. We Worked on our story. We have a few funny parts, You should read it. Next weekend Aunt Jan is bringing her family down finally! Grandma Taylor is going to have surgery.


Roberto April 29, 2017


Roberto-No word yet on the job. Not really sure I got it. I mean I need it but I think there are some more qualified people who applied. Weather doesn’t look like its going to be nice enough to do a yard sale. I may need to break down and just do a online one to see if I can get some money.


Need to get some more info to the Idaho housing. Going to be interesting trying to explain why some stuff were $0 since I have not been able to afford to pay for it that everything were basically gifted. Geez really need to figure out money and what I really want to do with this house. Not that I could find myself something I can afford with cats.


April 12, 1997, Saturday-Angela came over we worked on our story. We have a few funny parts. You should read it. Next weekend Aunt Jan is bringing her family down, Finally! Grandma Taylor is going to have surgery.


Lonely April 26, 2017


Lonely- new stuff to bid on!


Kind of a lazy day today. Since the clouds stayed for most of the day  I didn’t dare mow the lawn or spray the weeds. Kind of need a better day for both of those. But need one soon or the front will be in really bad shape. Also should be getting plants for the garden. So today I actually sat down and read. Haven’t done that in a while. Finished the last one of this series. Wicthes Winds of Salem by Melissa De La Cruz Now to find other books to read.


April 10, 1996, Wednesday-Woden’s Day

April 10, 1997, Thursday-Normal Day

April 11, 1996, Thursday-Thor’s Day. Dad’s Birthday

April 11, 1997, Friday-Dad’s Birthday.


Real Woman Blueprints April 25, 2017

Real Woman Blueprints

Real Woman Blueprints- Ugh so nice little phone call from my mom. Knew the financial no talk wouldn’t last. Of course I get the talk not the help, but really hate having someone telling me that I may need to give up my cats to keep my house. Sure tell a mother to give up her children so she can keep a roof over her head. Not really a conversation I really want. And how to choose one to keep. Ok you are my favorite you can stay the rest of you must go away. And room mate. Not happening with where the bathroom is located at. Just need some money to fall from the sky, just enough to pay some stuff debt so I can feel a little better with everything.

blueprint This is my mind as an environment. A nice meadow with a lake in the middle of it in the middle of a blizzard.


April 9, 1996, Tuesday-Tiu’s Day. Back to school. Guess what by the school’s clocks we came an hour early and left an hour early, because they forgot to change their clocks ahead one hour. Oh, ya, I got dish room duty with Angela. That means I get to wash dishes all this month. Yip!

April 9, 1997, Wednesday-Grandma Taylor has a brain tumor that has gone all over. She has six weeks to live.


Patsy Maire Franks April 23, 2017

Patsy Maire Franks

Patsy Maire Franks-Someone just shoot me. So gave myself 6 months to figure my shit out. Ugh don’t know. Afraid of change? More like don’t want to start on the bottom of the totem pole and have to work my way back up. Also year evaul today, not as good as I would get on the front end. Must stay focused, busy, and smile and talk to people. Which means I need to learn to be comfortable on both sides of the deli. I’m fine on the hot case have that down, not so sure on the cold. Salads aren’t bad, but meat I’m not good at recommending. And selling it, basic stuff sure the rest not so much. Ask questions learn. And learn to have better confidence in myself.

Now financially crap. Really, really screwed on this one. Need to get out of debt. Bug relief would be taken off my shoulders. Than this house. I really don’t want to go back to renting. Really you can’t get a 2 bedroom for $461 and cats. What to do? What to do? ( Working on putting stuff together for a yard sale. Got to get money to pay mortgage. 5 months behind and in need to catch up and have extra just to survive. 2 more years. Wanted to own for 5 that was my goal, I have 2 more years to do that.

Also took in another cat, shhh. It’s a secret. He’s a big old Siamese male. My friends just couldn’t take him with them to their place. $250 is kind of ridiculous for pet deposit. He’s a nice old man, my cats are crazy cats.


Just s feel like failing at life. And tonight’s conversation with my parents went over so well. Six months… I don’t know what I really am doing.


April 8, 1996, Monday-Moon’s Day

April 8, 1997, Tuesday-Played softball out in the cold for PE. For mutual we had to blow a feather half way down the gym and back. Get over a stick without using anything inn the room and I was thrown over it 2 times. Carry everyone on a rug. And walk on 3 wood to get to one side of parking lot from the other.


Avery Lillian April 19, 2017

Avery Lillian

Avery Lillian-Oh what a day. Definitely more like a Monday today than yesterday. And I had to deal with Patrick all yesterday. Need to figure out why I’m so tired. I swear I sleep more than I am a wake. Partly I think I’m falling into depressed state since I can’t seem to figure out how to get myself a little relief. But Four days off in a row, I should be able to get this darn paperwork off. Hopefully that will give some relief and then I’m going to go through my stuff and work on yard selling it off so hopefully that will get me enough to bring one bank account out of the red and pay off what I do owe on the mortgage. But the whole get out of debt not just don’t see any hope with that right now.


Listening to the wind outside. Been a couple days of gloomy weather and rain.


April 7, 1996, Sunday-Sun’s Day. General Conference. On 60 minutes tey had a section on mormanize. Easter Bunny came. Left me 3 marshmallow chicks, 5 three musketeers, perfume, bath oil, bath gel, pillow case with Young Women Values on it, and water colors. Dad’s Birthday is coming up.

April 7, 1997, Monday-Chris is leaving for Florida tomorrow for Robotics.


Eugene Vaniderstine April 12, 2017

Eugene Vaniderstine

Eugene Vaniderstine-Slacker Slacker Slacker, So what I feel like today. Though did call and talk to my dad on his birthday about the only thing I’ve done right this day. Six years of working at Barrel of Monkey place.


So today at day I was behind all day. Couldn’t get the grab and goes out… Actually never really got them all out until 3 pm. Lol crazy. Barely slide the burrito bar pretty much out at 11 and only because Will actually started hauling out my stuff in the warmer, but still was trying to set up and make some for customers. Felt like I ran all day and never caught up or finished what I started. And I was called in as well.


April 6, 1996, Saturday-Saturn’s Day General Conference. Yesterday got home from our trip to Crater of the Moon. All trails but one was snowed in. We stayed the night then came home. TOMORROW: Easter.

April 6, 1997, Sunday-General Conference. We taped Legacy.